Air Temperature: 7 degrees | Time 7.00am
Buttons and blackberries
All quiet at the river this morning…suitably ‘cool’ and only disturbance my yampy puppy who has taken a liking to picking and eating blackberries. More confirmation in my mind that she is the reincarnation of the poisoned fox that I found and worked on this time last year. At the time I said to the fox that it would be amazing if she healed and would choose to be a bonkers dog and live with us…turns out that she choose to I feel….
Blackberries… and buttons…comes a point when you get tired of your emotional buttons being pushed and you seem to be receiving again and again the brunt of another persons’ anger and frustration. Bit of a challenge at such times not to de-funk into a pattern of ‘pleasing others’ and in doing so compromising your own needs and/or values/principles.
Appears that lots of people do just that, especially sensitive people, projecting that they don’t want to ‘make’ someone else upset, antagonise an already highly charged situation or judge their own frustrations as being ‘bad’ in some way and so choose not to honour those feelings but rather try and squash them away. Thing is though those feelings haven’t ‘gone’ and subsequently can either fester into physicality and states of dis-ease, or are triggered at a later date by another incident, adding fuel to the fire when the button gets pushed by something else.
It is hard to stand in your truth, especially when emotions are potentially uncomfortable and challenging. A friend asked me today ‘how do you do it?’ I laughed and replied, ‘…badly!’ but I do, do it never-the-less, even though I often still feel so far out of my comfort zone when doing so and invariably after having done so, collapse in a weeping heap afterwards as the tension leaves my body. Not necessarily ‘pretty’ therefore, or ‘easy’ but definitely worth it as each time you do stand in your truth a miracle happens…when the raw emotions subside, you ae left feeling clearer, stronger and more empowered.
One thing though. It is perhaps important to remember the importance of perception and the fact that everyone’s perception is slightly different – some drastically so. This has to be taken into account when offering your side to an argument/emotionally charged situation. You are not ‘right’ any more that the other person. YOU can only ever be ‘right’ in the fact that you are opening up and expressing your truth and your feelings… allowing your truth to ‘be’… and that has to be enough… the expression of your truth the only desired factor, no expectation of a certain response, no expectation of a projected reaction or outcome. The simple act of expressing you…is the only goal.
That keeps you free and flowing, fluid like the river, not getting caught up in other people’s projections, reactions and behaviours… Easier said than done perhaps, but definitely worth the effort…take a deep breath, be mindful in the moment and step into the power of your truth… see where the river of expression leads…
Enjoy your journey X