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Reclaiming Power
Sometimes you have to reclaim your power. Reclaim it…not because anyone has taken it – at least not lately – but rather reclaim it from yourself in that you have spiralled into a pattern of self doubt and self sabotage.
Not altogether easy. Often the last thing you actually feel like doing is putting yourself ‘out there’ stepping out of your comfort zone and perhaps facing a hurdle that you have felt looming for a while. That’s what faced today… for in typical All Hallows style, felt imploded with emotional patterns surfacing and made a pact with myself that today I was going to pull that back…
River had major part to play in this process… early dunk and then headed down river to ‘sail’ in the estuary …gulp. A sailing novice… for me sailing is more like – throw yourself onto the water in an unpredictable vessel, cling on for dear life and pray that you survive… and for someone who had vowed that they would never put foot in a one man dingy again…well…a challenge, especially given that an unknown amount of onlookers would be present too to observe your incompetency. It was sheer grim determination – determination for my guys to learn to sail.. and have that as a path they could choose here after to walk (or sail) down – that motivated me. Perfect opportunity then to reclaim power… ‘face the fear’
Result??
Found myself – sailing …sailing!!… – on the river with the guys sailing around in their boats, feeling very proud of them and observing the shift. I was aware of feeling free of heavy emotions… and instead felt empowered and light. Yet again with the rivers involvement, I felt free and was observing a ‘success’…Forgive my indulgence if, for a moment, I ‘submerse’ in this…
Enjoy your journey X