Air Temperature 2 Degrees Time: 7.35am
Feeling ‘it’ today
Wild day today – soaked even before reached the river. Perhaps not ‘mindfulness’, but considered just jumping in clothed, but then discarded that thought as being too wacky??
Its always hardest to stay focused on your ‘dreams’ and to feel that they are possible to attain when you are wet and cold, physically and also in spirit don’t you find? So much easier to feel optimism when the sun is out and you feel ‘warm’ both in body and in mind. There is no doubt about it, Winter can be tough – on all levels…
Dipped in the water and honestly even that didn’t work today… head still felt full and befuddled, the wave of ‘doubt’ looming. Had a vision of myself on a beach with this enormous wave rushing at me – thinking no surfing it today then…today its going to hit…
What to do?
Have you ever noticed how swimming in the sea, once you have your feet off the floor and are floating – a lot of waves that could potentially knock you off your feet, you just bob over? That thought went through my mind. OK…need to ‘float’ today, what would make me float rather than feel helpless on the beach with the proverbial wave approaching??
Nope, no ideas came…only the mindful practice of acceptance. Acceptance that right now this was my feeling. Couldn’t run or outrun it. It may not be my most favourite feeling in the world. But this was my truth in this moment. I didn’t feel that great, I felt scared and vulnerable… So What? That’s real, that’s my authenticity today…and like the clouds these thoughts and feelings can and will move if I don’t cling to them as an ‘issue’
Then I did what I do best… set my imagination free…roaming in the realm of dreams… and making associations as what in ‘my dream’ what parts of my life now are already there… I call it ‘golden anchoring’ It works, just it doesn’t always happen as quick l in 3D as sometimes you would wish it! Slowly but surely today though could feel the difference, the shift as energy started to move… change is afoot…
Enjoy your journey X